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Today was a good day. I'm high on whatever it is good feeling are made. Lots of things aren't going well but that isn't my fault. I just give bad news I don't make it happen. Sure, I have to deal with it and tell other people so they have to deal with it but it isn't my doing. Despite this I was successful in something today and not only did I get it, but I did really well. I feel great. To reward myself I pushed the Question Mark button on the vending machine. Unfortunately I received a Coke Zero for my careless button pushing. I wanted a Sprite but Question Mark button was there instead of Sprite. I did not let this deter my jubilant mood. I drank the shit out of that Zero. Before the horrible after taste kicked in I drowned it out with butterlover pop corn. I did all this while watching my favorite 5 plus year old television show.
I just reread what I just wrote. Learned my lesson. I sound like a little girl. Seriously though, this good mood is odd. It's starting to worry me. I've been like this for a week or more. Something is very wrong. Where's that bitter edge, that scowl, those sardonic comments, the sarcastic overtones to every breath. I think they're still here. They are hiding.