Failure
I often think of greater things than necessity or selfish wants. Although just about anything can be boiled down to just about anything else. That said, I’ll continue with my thought this evening.
I hope everyone thinks of their motivation; the very emotions or states of mind that ultimately dictates your actions. While seldom conscious, these things are the reasons one does what one does.
I think I’ve narrowed mine down. Admittedly, it probably can just be survival instinct or basic wants but I’m not going to consider it.
I don’t want to fail. In anything I do or try to accomplish. Whether I like it or not (or have grown to not like it). I guess it really is not failure itself that drives me, its other people knowing I failed. The other people can be peers or family but … I think in my case it’s whatever is in my head. Telling me of my faults, insulting me … making me better. I want to be more than what I am and I don’t want to take the easy route. … ehh, there’s more but …
All this is negated by my indolence, misanthropy and megalomania. These also define me. Unfortunately.
Or maybe I should just stop talking out of my ass. I’m tired. I need sleep. Maybe I should just set that as my goal.
“… and I am rich beyond the dreams of avarice.” –The Gamester by Edward Moore
I hope everyone thinks of their motivation; the very emotions or states of mind that ultimately dictates your actions. While seldom conscious, these things are the reasons one does what one does.
I think I’ve narrowed mine down. Admittedly, it probably can just be survival instinct or basic wants but I’m not going to consider it.
I don’t want to fail. In anything I do or try to accomplish. Whether I like it or not (or have grown to not like it). I guess it really is not failure itself that drives me, its other people knowing I failed. The other people can be peers or family but … I think in my case it’s whatever is in my head. Telling me of my faults, insulting me … making me better. I want to be more than what I am and I don’t want to take the easy route. … ehh, there’s more but …
All this is negated by my indolence, misanthropy and megalomania. These also define me. Unfortunately.
Or maybe I should just stop talking out of my ass. I’m tired. I need sleep. Maybe I should just set that as my goal.
“… and I am rich beyond the dreams of avarice.” –The Gamester by Edward Moore
1 Comments:
I don't believe insulting yourself makes you better. Insults are ment to hurt, not help you see your faults. When you concentrate on hurting yourself, you'll never be able to focus on fixing the problems you see in yourself. The hardest thing you can do is acually change how you act and how you think of yourself. Gaining self esteem is a big first step to changing. Focusing on what you're doing wrong will never make it right. Focusing on what you do right and making those rights occur more often is real change.
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